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owlectomyIt is in my nature to be anxious.
It is natural for me to be especially anxious when I have a master's paper due in 12 days now, and am graduating in six weeks, and have yet to get enjobbened. (Oh, I heard back from Omaha, and I was 18th out of 41 applicants! Not even close.)
It's almost at the point where I accept my anxiety with a blank detached calm, if you know what I mean.
So when I get reassurances, it's not that I don't appreciate y'all*, or believe y'all, it's just that I can't figure out much else to do besides flailing my arms around, all the while knowing at some level that things are going to be all right.
And if I am flailing around in public, it is probably because I do know that things will be all right. I flail privately when I'm genuinely fearful.
*Someone can remove me from the south now, k plz thnx.
It is natural for me to be especially anxious when I have a master's paper due in 12 days now, and am graduating in six weeks, and have yet to get enjobbened. (Oh, I heard back from Omaha, and I was 18th out of 41 applicants! Not even close.)
It's almost at the point where I accept my anxiety with a blank detached calm, if you know what I mean.
So when I get reassurances, it's not that I don't appreciate y'all*, or believe y'all, it's just that I can't figure out much else to do besides flailing my arms around, all the while knowing at some level that things are going to be all right.
And if I am flailing around in public, it is probably because I do know that things will be all right. I flail privately when I'm genuinely fearful.
*Someone can remove me from the south now, k plz thnx.