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Just got back from seeing the Stars concert!
I have no idea if they're always that good or if there was something particularly electric in the air tonight -- it was definitely one of the best concerts I've been to, and an entirely emotionally cathartic experience.
Torquil is a guy who I don't happen to find attractive at all but he has just a RIDICULOUS amount of personal charisma? He's theatrical when he sings, in the sense of really being expressive and being good at projecting emotion, but not in the sense that it ever felt fake -- it felt like there was joy in the air and he was reflecting that and everyone in the ballroom was catching it. It wasn't necessarily just about the music; "From the Night," the first song that they played, is not really one of my favorites, although it has much more of a raw punch live; it was a sense of just being there for honest emotional sharing.
A couple of songs in, Torquil was talking about being grateful for everyone's support, and said something like "Everyone has a dream that they're working at in their bedroom," and I just kind of lost it. Because those words are so often used to dismiss those dreams. You have a dream? Who cares, so does everybody. That and $2 will get you a cup of coffee. But when he said it, it was about solidarity, for all of those dreams. It was about respect for the work everyone does without regard to whether it's good or bad, successful or unsuccessful. I had no idea how much I needed to hear that, but I did.
...And then a couple songs later, when I had just about recovered from that, they did "Hold On When You Get Love and Let Go When You Give It." And then it was "Dead Hearts," which would not have affected me so badly except that Torquil asked everyone to raise a fist for their ghost, and that brushed up against some stuff that was on my mind because of therapy. And then it was "No One Is Lost," with "Put your hands up if you ever feel afraid," and ... all the hands in the air, I don't know. You know that everyone's doing it because the song says so, but you also know that it's true, that all the time I walk around feeling like nobody else is as anxious as I am but that's mainly because the only person whose weird anxious thoughts I have regular access to is me.
Soooo what I'm saying is, Meaghan, be glad you were in France and not getting cried on???
And that I need to be reminded, sometimes, that it's possible to open your heart and make stuff that's worth making. And that if there's creative work that you want to do, the right way to do it is with your heart open, even if you spend so much time feeling sad and scared that you think you can't anymore.
I have no idea if they're always that good or if there was something particularly electric in the air tonight -- it was definitely one of the best concerts I've been to, and an entirely emotionally cathartic experience.
Torquil is a guy who I don't happen to find attractive at all but he has just a RIDICULOUS amount of personal charisma? He's theatrical when he sings, in the sense of really being expressive and being good at projecting emotion, but not in the sense that it ever felt fake -- it felt like there was joy in the air and he was reflecting that and everyone in the ballroom was catching it. It wasn't necessarily just about the music; "From the Night," the first song that they played, is not really one of my favorites, although it has much more of a raw punch live; it was a sense of just being there for honest emotional sharing.
A couple of songs in, Torquil was talking about being grateful for everyone's support, and said something like "Everyone has a dream that they're working at in their bedroom," and I just kind of lost it. Because those words are so often used to dismiss those dreams. You have a dream? Who cares, so does everybody. That and $2 will get you a cup of coffee. But when he said it, it was about solidarity, for all of those dreams. It was about respect for the work everyone does without regard to whether it's good or bad, successful or unsuccessful. I had no idea how much I needed to hear that, but I did.
...And then a couple songs later, when I had just about recovered from that, they did "Hold On When You Get Love and Let Go When You Give It." And then it was "Dead Hearts," which would not have affected me so badly except that Torquil asked everyone to raise a fist for their ghost, and that brushed up against some stuff that was on my mind because of therapy. And then it was "No One Is Lost," with "Put your hands up if you ever feel afraid," and ... all the hands in the air, I don't know. You know that everyone's doing it because the song says so, but you also know that it's true, that all the time I walk around feeling like nobody else is as anxious as I am but that's mainly because the only person whose weird anxious thoughts I have regular access to is me.
Soooo what I'm saying is, Meaghan, be glad you were in France and not getting cried on???
And that I need to be reminded, sometimes, that it's possible to open your heart and make stuff that's worth making. And that if there's creative work that you want to do, the right way to do it is with your heart open, even if you spend so much time feeling sad and scared that you think you can't anymore.