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My New Year's Resolution
30/12/17 19:10Is to consciously turn away from Self-Improvement as an ideal.
To read more books I'm excited about reading and fewer books that I feel bound to read by guilt or duty
To make time for cooking because I enjoy it and because I can cook better vegetarian food than any of the restaurants in walking distance
But also - to understand the difference between doing something because I genuinely enjoy it and doing something because I don't have the energy or brainpower to do anything else, and to try to get more genuine joy and less cardboardy joy substitute.
Going along with that, I am trying very hard to say no to all those promises I tend to make to myself right around the end of December about taking more vitamins and moisturizing my skin and having a clean desk. Because first of all, I probably won't. And second of all - I just really need to stop conceptualizing my whole life as a long list of tasks that I am failing to do. It gets in the way of understanding what you really value. It gets in the way of the few things that genuinely matter.
To read more books I'm excited about reading and fewer books that I feel bound to read by guilt or duty
To make time for cooking because I enjoy it and because I can cook better vegetarian food than any of the restaurants in walking distance
But also - to understand the difference between doing something because I genuinely enjoy it and doing something because I don't have the energy or brainpower to do anything else, and to try to get more genuine joy and less cardboardy joy substitute.
Going along with that, I am trying very hard to say no to all those promises I tend to make to myself right around the end of December about taking more vitamins and moisturizing my skin and having a clean desk. Because first of all, I probably won't. And second of all - I just really need to stop conceptualizing my whole life as a long list of tasks that I am failing to do. It gets in the way of understanding what you really value. It gets in the way of the few things that genuinely matter.